Wednesday, April 30, 2008

♀the dawn♀

endless lust, and endless hate...
late night and midnight shadows
let me call upon your heart of darkness..
your solemn wishes shall never persih..
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this world is not fair, yet people continue to breath, continue to live. because this is reality, and we all live in one world. it may all sound the same but, don't you think i am right. if your feeling down right now and feel as if nothing is Good going on with your life? just pack up your tears and stand up! this is reality so no need to shed tears my dear. be strong and life will give you rewards in the end no matter how hard the storms in your life may come.

Monday, April 28, 2008

La_piCtoria

:+:the picture in my Blog:+:

does it seem seductive?
immoral?
stupid?
weird?
or clearly you just don't understand.

it means to be bold and to open up to the world, to forget and throw away the rotteness of this world. to show the world that not all pure stays the same. that all good has evil, that everyone changes in silence.

that in silence there is death, it seems like a gown because it is like i am married to the death this world gives. to the crap it holds.

it does not mean anything more. yet, i do not hold your minds. think what you want to think its not like i am stripped bare infront of all of you. i do have something on me right? so any justifications or does this mean that you guys are just jealous because i made something that i can call mine and not just something i copied from a picture of a friend.

MUSIC

music is the source of spiritual life. without music, life is like without color. when everything is in silence, it is like dying. because music is like an invisible crayon that colors the world depending to the beat of the strings, the pounding on the drums and all the instruments. from instrumental to natural sounds, music is everywhere in anything that we do. there are alot of genre's which music is classified. most of them perhaps i may not know much, but i bet it is something i would rather explore than sexual pleasure or drugs.

i guess music also depends on the person's mood or who that person . the personality suits the music genre. but, what if you don't have one private persona and you seem to keep most? then i guess you belong in niether of the genre's but it just depends on your personal feeling.

GRAVEYARD: LOVE AND DEVOTION

love?
what a pathetic feeling to endure. devotion? what a waste... tsk tsk tsk... life has made me more of a hypocrit than someone for the better.

isn't it surprising how one person changes so fast in a split second? how one person disappears and dies in a year?

love, is not a game. not soemthing you should play. love is sacred and not something you should ignore like its only a piece of word writen on paper. its a word spelled but, the emotion expressed is very powerful. yet, why do most people use it for fun, for sex, for stupidity, to take advantage of people?

when love comes there is a something called devotion that grows which means when a person is truely in love... he/ she is devoted into making that person happy no matter what.


yet, for me. i had enough about being serious. thats why i placed love and devotion in my graveyard list.

i don't need love right now. all i need right now is a friend to join me in my journey in this life, and devotion for those who are devoted to join me NO MATTER WHAT. but to fall for love in any circumstances and become DEVOTED again? is a definete Infinite NO!WAY!

Parents Parents Parents

they feed us..
they give us clothes, home, education...
yet, not all gives are free... most parents do it because they feel they need to..
so that when they age, they'd be taken care of... how pitiful...
what low life excuse to raise children...
and if they become a burden... they rant what they gave..
they accuse more than see what that they do not see...
how much low can they give this crappy world..
they create monsters unknowingly..
how i envy those families who live for life...
work for fun and responsibility...love for family unconditionally...
what i would give to have a simple life like that... i guess if i would then..
i would only complain how crap the world has become yet, be still thankful that i was given people to love and cherish...
yet, God never gave everything we wanted... its what he thinks best for us that he will give and not what we wish...
though it does seem unfair...
then again...
WHAT IS FAIR?

Sunday, April 27, 2008

MY LATEST UPCOMING NOVEL: SILENTHEART

SILENT HEART:



Sneak peak:



you have seen julia's life when she was in high school. now, take a peak on how her twin who graduate's high school take up college. if my UNTITLED STORY BROUGHT YOUR INTEREST UP, THEN I GUESS WE WILL BE MOVING A LITTLE BIT MORE TO THE EDGE OF EVRYTHING WHEN SILENT HEART BEGINS TO UNFOLD. SO HOPE YOU GUYS WOULD BE READING IT! TAKE CARE YOU ALL!

drowning into hate

why is it that no matter how hard i try, i just can't find my heart to forgive my friend? i know i am no God and the principal that nobody is Perfect and everyone deserves a second chance thing, but i guess am having trouble accepting the fact that i really can't hold it on close. its too much of a big deal for me that am willing to sacrifice of whats left of our friendship. i just don't understand why, i just don't know why. but, i just can't forgive him right now. but, the thought of forgiving him someday, it seems rather blurry than today. meaning am niether thinking of forgiving him now or tomorrow.

i just hope someone would stumble on this webpage of mine and give me a piece or a word of advice

♫ikkin♫


just a short history.
i just met he in a clan through text, and who would ever thought that she'd be a part of my life. i trust this girl as i already seen her. ikkin! take care always. i have nothing much to say except!
you rock on everything!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

♀Shamikochess♀



my schoolmates: SHAMMY, MIKO,CHE AND JESS
i started the year, having more friends then ended up in a aquabble because someone was jealous and wanted them all for herself. i was left with one, the prim and proper and rule sticking girl miko. turns out, she liked anime, music and alot of things that i liked to do. she is easy to pull to the mall, to books and to the internet shop and she constantly reminds me to do stuff that are be done like the assignments, projects, the time and because of her i owe her everything i am learning in my temporary stay in st.paul.
che: i met her during our joined classes in religion, she's very funny great to be with. i like her very much and its a miracle that she clicked personalities with miko.
shammy: miko's long time buddy, never thought that shammy would click with che and me.
then it was settled shamikochess was born. i am always thankful and greatful to have found them.

♫The Untitled Story in the Making♫

DAWNSHADOWS



BY: GISELLE MARIS A. BACALLA



An angels light



:: soul meets an angel ::



epilogue 1





Campus groundsOn a late afternoon, the campus grounds looked as if still. Everything seemed so much the same, as if the everyday scene would always stay the same. For those who are new around these campus grounds, it may rather seem new, or simple the same as every school show’s everyday. But, for those who are silent observers of this social life. The campus grounds are never the same and nothing stays as it is. Because in every room and every door and corner of every school a story unfolds after another.



This is a piss…what wastes of time…can’t I just lazy around and sleep in my bed?



These thoughts ran all over and over his head. Mark Rosales, a new student in De La Salle lipa, just decided to give himself a stroll around his new campus grounds. He became bored seeing the same old stuff at Canossa and moved to La Salle instead even if his already on his 10th year there at canossa acadamy. Yet, so far nothing has caught much of his attention. Till he remembered that he had something important to do.



Why the heck did I forget?...tomorrow’s mrs. Myra’s deadline on her assigned book report to me...



Quickly he rushed towards the LRC(learning resource center) to look for a the book about the 7 sea’s, he bumped to everyone infront of him. He ran fast, noticed that he had only a few minutes to spare before the library closes.



Shit…I know its noting special and everything here is somewhat killing me to boredom…but, it would be ridiculous not to submit her assignments…damn…shit…I made my mind float in space again…



He arrives 10 minutes before the library closes. He logged his name on the list and quickly searched for the book he was trying to find.





Epilogue 2



Oh…crap…too many books…if I hadn’t been late for 3 days straight mr. loreto wouldn’t give me this suspension…damn it…



Julia ann velasquez, suspended for being late consistently for 3 day.

Shit…if only I woke up earlier and work didn’t piled up…I’d be on time…ugh…I don’t want to do this again..although I do love books…ehehehe…well, here’s the last book…


She sorts the books on the tale section. The last book about the 7 sea’s was her last place to the shelf. She climbs up the shelves and reaches for the top shelf. When, she slips and falls…


Epilogue 1 and 2 merge

Mark now on the other end of the tale section walks absent mindedly..

Where is that stupid book…good grief…I have to find it sooner or late…

Looking for the book was getting on his nerves when. All of a sudden, someone falls in on top of him. Falling from the top shelf Caused a simple landing on a soft And gentle heart…


Mark meets an angel…

his soul leaps out gently out of him…his heart beating…a lovely young girl by accident…as their lips touched warmly…

the young lady sits up and apologize to him blushing like a ripe tomato.


I’m sorry I didn’t mean to fall like that on you…I ah…I kindah slip my left foot…

Mark now had stood up and offered his hand as he bowed gently as any gentleman would do. He gave her his sweetest and warmest smile showing the words untold and the feeling of pleasure meeting her. He spoke to her in his gentle voice.

It’s alright. It was an accident right? So there is nothing to worry about. My names mark and you are miss?

She shyly took his hand and smiled and took her gaze away from his gentle stare.

My name is..well, um…my names Julia ann velasquez. Please, you can call me Julia…

Mark could only hear her first two words that she has said. ‘’julia ann’’ it was as if being in a trance under an angel that has caught his attention and held his heart breathless for the few remaining minutes left by the clock. And yet, time seemed to stop. He picked up the book she fell, the moment she had fallen to a kiss with him as her balance gave that signal that they will be meeting this way. And to his surprise, the book was exactly what he had on mind. The book that he was looking for was the same exact book that Julia had to put on top most shelves.

Well…well…well…look at here. This was the book I was looking for. Thanks don’t worry about what happen. This will be our own lil secrete alright Julia?

Giving her a humorous wink, and to which made Julia feel less uneasy about what had happened. She slowly comes back of her senses and started to laugh.

I’m sorry. It was just a shock to meet you this way, mark. Mark, can I call you by that name? Hehehe…well…am sorry again. So in exchange for that. I’ll borrow the book for you. Coz the library is already closed you see. Mark let out a chuckle and smiled at her. Alright. But, since you fell on me…you have to agree that I can accompany you home at least… He said to her in a conditional manner. But, Julia knew she can’t let him take her home. Since her house isn’t like everyone else is. Besides if anyone would know about her real situation they would end up either on the pity side or disgust about her real life style. Umm…am sorry…but…Julia paused for a few minutes and smiled. I have a service you see…and we will be leaving around 6pm so if your not in a hurry…then maybe we could just talk for a lil while… She had finished her sentence clear. And it made mark realize that she wasn’t well trusting. He thought of a diversion to his rudeness and suddenly made a joke out of it. Well you know what I meant was…TAKE YOU HOME…hehehe…am sorry. I was just being a gentle man or whaddya call that…gentle buttler… This joke was corny enough to make Julia laugh. She was so much of a down to earth kind of person that it needed only one joke or one wacky move to make her laugh. Her smile was so much enchanting that every time he had the chance he would look at her and gaze to her admiringly. With no words asked as they went to their way to the parking lot. They had managed to talk about almost everything. Julia’s life before, how much pain she had managed to surpass. Although she had only said a few of what she had pictured for him was enough. He had told her his side of the story and how he had been so down and lonely. And his words stuck into her mind as if it was just a clip of always remember this kind of thing. And do you know…this is the first time I had an actual conversation to someone beside my best friend and nanny? You know you’re lucky. Coz you’re the first person who made me smile in years…am serious. Julia suddenly stopped walking; they were already at the college lobby gates, the route towards the parking lot. She smiled and then grabs hold of mark’s hand. She smiles as she dragged him to the hall and faced him with her sweetest smile. Well, then…if that’s the case, am happy to hear that…lets go then shall we?Time was being kind and friendly. It was 5:01 and it felt like it never moved one bit from the moment they left the library. What was once dull and boring to him had suddenly came into a new kind of light. Adventure was in its finest and a new chapter in his life had just opened up. They had talk so much that time flew as if it was never there, and that they where the only people around the place. From politics, gossips, old classmates and legends about there school. Their conversation seemed like an endless debate and tales of each side. It was like the two of them where meant to meet and become friends. And they did indeed both felt that it was something new. Finally, 6pm struck the final hour and it was time for Julia to leave. Warm smiles and sweet goodbye’s left mark with a happy heart. It was one memorable afternoon as he watched the young lady board her service van. And him, heading straight for the college lobby. Although Julia leaved near by her parents never trusted her. So she had to be on a service van instead. And as she sat on that van, for a few minutes before her service reached her house. Her thoughts were in blankness. The van stopped and she got off, the house was locked and it was clear that no one was home. Julia searched her bag for the keys and finally opened the door. She entered the house and took off her shoes, her clothes and changed into her usual house clothing. Julia normally wore a pink shirt and black shorts and dropping her uniform at the laundry basket located near the stairs. She laid down on her soft warm bed, with the doors closed and the electric fan on. And The radio, playing her favorite songs. She thought of what had happened to her the entire day. And as Julia scans every bit of what had her memory remembers she smiled, as she had been reminded of a happy moment. Julia’s entire day a flash back, on to what happened to her before she met mark. Her thoughts randomly ran through her mind. As she pictured the very moment she entered the campus. The bell rang as she placed her stuff under her chair. It was always the same as before, the usual routine. The teacher reads the bulletin, classmates buzzing while some are still too drowsy or sleepy to even move a muscle. Three subjects passed and her time was up. The agreement of attending her math, physics and English has ended to there. And now, Julia bid her classmates a sweet smile and with her soft voice it stated she wasn’t happy much of what she had to do. Well, see yah later guys. Looks like I’ll be diving the books for some time…hehehe…don’t worry riselle! I won’t be late the next time around. She said while looking to the girl seating behind her. Her name was riselle g.vega, her close friend and classmate. She had warned Julia to stop waking up late, and was quite upset having to know that her buddy would be on suspension that afternoon. Yes, suspension was the reason why she wined up meeting mark. Her 3 day late gave her this head ache and lucky strike. The reason to why she was like this, in exactly 3 days in a row? Was her mom. She wouldn’t let her out until she finishes ranting. Well, that was a clear statement. But, she had no choice to say that she woke up late as an excuse. End of flash back. The room was in silence and everything seemed so quite in her room. The fan turned left and right and dim light illuminated her room in silence. Sadness filled her for a moment as she was reminded of being lonely and solidified, yet she warmly smiles when her mind crossed a perfect stitch of path. As she touched her lips gently and smiled. Wow…so this is the feeling. To have someone touched your lips with one’s lips. This feeling…it’s so warm… I can’t describe it…anyways…it was an accident. What a funny way for us to meet up…hehehe…I better start cooking…before my brothers arrive. I bet they’ll rant at me again. Hmm… Although she could sense her tired body, and seemed to need some rest. She stands up forcing herself to prepare dinner and the uniforms for the following day. Epilogue 2 Mark arrives home. He passed by the maid who had been watering the plants. He entered the house and hugged his nanny Martha. He jumped and laughed while screaming julia’s name. Nanny! I met a girl…I met a girl and she was so so pretty…aunt Martha…gill…this is sooo cool!!!!! Everyone surprised onto what has been going on. Since it came for a shock on all of them.“Now hold on for a second, mark….what is going on?”his nanny now have stand up and fixed her glasses, as the rest of the servants stayed for a while and stopped their work to hear their young master answer their governess question.“nanny, alam nyo ba…I met this real cute girl, and she helped me borrowed books from the library, and as I looked at her, I could imagine her warm smile…”mark was about to continue when he was interrupted by the doorbell. The butler James opened the door and a drenched Amie stood in front of them. She smiled at them and apologize.“am sorry, it suddenly rai---“before she could even finish one sentence marked had rushed towards her and wrapped her in warm towel, and hug her brotherly.“its ok, amie…my magandang balita ako para sayo….! Hahaha…I met the prettiest girl in my entire life!”Amie’s blushed suddenly faded and her heart suddenly sank. She couldn’t believe what she had heard. She was enough surprise and happy to see that mark was in such a good mood and became happy that evening, but, to what she had heard, she could not help but wish to have the same mark everyday again.LOVE OR INFATUATION?“Sometimes when youth begins to experience admiration for the first time, it becomes hard for them to realize whether it is infatuation or true love. Since, the feelings felt are almost the same….but, how can you really tell if its infatuation or love itself in disguise?”misty morning embraces the school grounds, as most of them are trying to wake up and have a head start for school. Amie woke up at the wrong side of the bed, having a bad headache and dull expression it was written all over her face that she had cried herself to sleep. Promptly arriving at the school parking lot at exactly 6:30 am in the morning, she had walked her way to her room absent mindedly and not watching to where she was going. Turning left in a corner near the LRC(learning resource center).Amie had just bump into Christopher alexandre. The class president and nerd.“wow, that was a nasty fall, amie ya’ alright…?”“ai…ah...ok lang ako…I think…am sorry, I didn’t see you…kasi…”she had apologize as tears filled her eyes.Christopher bent stood up and smiled, and offered his hand to her.“its alright. I guess I wasn’t watching too…”he said as he apologize to her, and as a brotherly gesture, he had embraced her and made the effort of making her stop from crying.By then, she had stopped crying and Christopher took the opportunity to distance himself and finally picked up his lap top. Amie saw his worried expression both for her and his lap top. She knew that Christopher was a kind and gentle man by nature and is very well addicted to computer games, aside from studying he also loves to create websites. Although this had made her notice, about his physical appearance.Christopher was a 5’’9, he had a fair complexion and was the perfect picture of a gentleman. He looked like those old young men from London who had fine manners and loved collecting animals, hunting or anything that would make them interested enough to go crazy over it. he had deep amber eyes, and his smile was comforting that made Amie realized how good looking his friend Christopher was, and as she had this thoughts inside her head, she had just then thought if Christopher had a girlfriend since he knows his way around girls so easily.She had wiped her tears and moved forward and apologized again. “I’m sorry chris, I didn’t mean to you see….and…the reason was…I was…really upset with the one I like…”He smiled at her expression, with drops of tears and blushing gently at him, he held her hand and smiled warmly. “so that explains why…why don’t you tell me…come on…it wouldn’t hurt, right? We still have 15minutes before the bell rings, lets take a stroll for lil’ while…what do you say?”Replied with a smile, they walked towards the open field and sat down together.The field was silent as mist covered some parts of it, it was still early in the morning and birds were now chirping, while a few groups of students from different level passed them by, Amie started her conversation with him, as Christopher listened to everything that she had said.“well, it has been going on for years and you surely are expressing the signs of a person who is in love. But, are you sure that’s not just an infatuation? It gets really confusing you see, especially if we have only felt love for the first time” he smiled at her and explained his thoughts clearly without offending her.“well, he is my first…but, I still don’t know…”she replied softly.While Christopher had now opened his laptop, while Amie felt that it was the right time to ask.“if you don’t mind chris…how come your so good when it comes to comforting girls?, have you had your first girlfriend already?” she said.Christopher had now stopped typing and bowed his head low, he fell silent and his expression suddenly turned cold, then smiled half heartedly.“yeah…I had my girl once, but, that was a long time ago! Anyway, its almost time. You should head back, I have to but something at the book store you see.”Amie knew that he was trying to avoid her question and took best to say yes to stop the conversation. She then agreed to go back to class head on for him, but, she paused for a minute and smiled at Christopher.“hey! Chris…thanks and …sorry about that…bye. See yah’ later, ayt?”she said.As Christopher watched her walked away he had made his way towards the bookstore and bought a pen and manila paper. He thought about her question, made him reminded of a past he never wanted to remember. By the time he had reached his class and sat beside Amie. The P.A had just rung and played the schools anthem, followed by the long bell that riiiiinnnnnnggggggg through the hallways passing by each classroom and the signal that the flag ceremony was about to start, as the national anthem was played followed by the panatang makabayan and the prayer, all the way to homeroom period and the rest of the subjects for that Monday morning.PAST IS PAST“past, present and future…these words stand significance to us humans. It maybe a placed as a question, school advertisement to promote better education and all of the sort, an advice from a parent and etc. to the lives of ordinary people, these are the main thoughts that circle their minds, whether they are married, young at heart, the youth or at old age. It is either we dream of the future, wonder and plan, or dwell in the past, and some stay focused in their present current state. In this chapter, we will see how some people handle this primary ingredients in their daily lives.”Finally the three hour routine for the morning subjects are almost up, as mark impatiently stared at his wristwatch and waited for the bell to ring and give them the signal that signifies the very favorite subject everyone needs whether you are a teacher of that school or a typical student yearning for a break. That’s right, the word is as simple as “recess”.In 5…4..3..2…1…RrRrIIIIIiiiiiinnnnnNNNNNNnnnnnGGGGGgggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!And there she goes! The teacher leaves the room and finally some had just stretched their arms and yawned for the last period of the morning. A typical 15minute break for everyone to relax a little before they go back inside the class and combat the textbooks they so consider as war for the thoughts that they have to remember and equations that they have to solve. While, most of the people enjoy eating, chatting, mark on the other hand had someone very special in his mind.Quickly mark had rushed down to the third floor and waited for Julia to come out of her class room, he waited outside Ls 302 for her, and the sight of his angel, he quickly rushed towards her and greeted her with a smile.“hey! Julia, goodmorning”. He said as he smiled and gave her a piece of pink flower he had picked from his grand nana’s garden.Julia gently gazed at him and took the flower gracefully as if she herself was the flower mark had given to her, with a simple smile, and blushing cheeks. Julia, had now realized that mark had been waiting for her.“good morning to you too! Mark. Have you been waiting for me?” she said with a giggle.Blushing like never before, he smiled and gave her a nod.“well, I was wondering if you wanted to have recess with me, but, sure…you can bring along your friends if you want too..”. He said with a stammering tune.She gave her warm smile and waved at her friends.“Or maybe you can join me and my friends instead? How would that be?”with no other options and reasons to keep her for himself, mark could not disagree since, the facts are visible enough that they had just met last Friday and that they were just in that stage where he gets to know her more and she gets to know him more kind of stage. And with no more less than 1percent of his hesitation, he had answered her half-heartedly.“Sure, that would be much better…hahaha”. He had said this with a forced laugh on his face, as he walked right beside her.Julia stopped in-front of her two best friends and introduced him.“Good morning! Guys, I’d like you to meet mark, I just met him last Friday by accident at the library. And, I was wondering if it was ok for him to join us fo recess?”.Her two friends giggled and said separately that it was ok and it wasn’t a problem. But, although the break was only a 15 minute recess, it seemed like an hour especially when julia’s two best friends started to interrogate him with questions from his name, his sport and almost everything that they’ve completely heard about him. Mark had just realized that he had forgotten about his high school background.Meanwhile…Canossa academyRecess timeThe school grounds seemed to be peaceful enough to hear a bee fly from one flower to flower as students chatter there way around, releasing stress out of there system, and getting ready for their time to go back in class.With only 5minutes left of rest…As each individual student savor the peacefulness of the remaining time, and trying their best to finish some un-finished homework, report or assignments. A small meeting was held at the un-crowded hallways.A tall young man had been leaning his body on the railings of the campus, he had been talking to four of his trusted comrades. He is one of the cool dudes and the leaders of the secrete gang called black demons he had secretly asked for the four of his trusted friends to help him plan out how to take back the princess of their group, since the reason was simple enough to understand them. The day that Julia left the academy the acting leaders tried to change the rules that she had set out for the safety of the group, and since she was famous for her identity the group itself carried her image. This had made a piss out of Vincent, because for him it was an insult to abuse the groups power to bully people who are weak and to use it for no such reason at all but, Mere entertainment.“we’ll be coming on a Friday. We need to have a get away to take Julia out of that campus. We know her house is just near the academy itself. But, we cannot afford having people to spy on us and tell the others. So keep yourselves alert. I trust you my friends. We will bring Julia back here, if it’s the last thing I do.” He said, as his eye’s flared with determination the bell had rung to signal its time.Epilogue 1The bell also rings in LaSalle, as everybody ran back to their classrooms. Mark’s smile was very much noticeable, that even their teacher ms. Suarez had noticed him, that became a reason for her to call him and do some board work.“Mr. Rosales? This is not the time for daydreaming. And since you have a cute smile on your face, please solve this kinetic force problem?” she said with her right eyebrow raised.This wasn’t a problem for Mark, since he feels inspired enough and the fact that his actually good in physics. So, if he was asked to explain he’ll do just fine with it. While, the rest of the class goes in a racket and teased their new teacher on mark. Yet, he never cares much about what they said as long as he had Julia in his mind.Amie watched mark dreamily went back to his seat, although her heart was in pain. She knew she had nothing more to give except his happiness to whom he likes best. Yet, she does not want to turn him down and decides to find out who the girl mark was talking all about these past few days. It didn’t matter to her anymore what the present had for him and her, and certainly the relationship they had as childhood friends. This was it, Amie was ready to let go of the past and concentrate on grabbing the chance to have mark in the future as her love.The year had just begun, and Amie had planned the year on how she could get back at mark’s heart and make her own. Although it seemed easy for anyone to suggest, her beauty and sexy body was not enough to attract one man’s attention. It wasn’t long before amie realized that there was something with Julia that makes guys like her, and girls lover her, admire her and hate her at the same time. The first event of the year will be held in a week after the exams. The school intramurals will soon begin. This time, she had planned to get mark help her into learning new sports, prepare food and make him feel all of her care, and operation sexy body clothes for him. yet, by the end of the intramurals, she still had no success on what she was planning to do. But, it was something that she would not agree to loose, and set her mind to try again and again.Epilogue 2Amie strives while, vince tries to think of ways on how get in to LaSalle without letting anyone know there identity. The weeks had passed by so quickly, as if time had set itself on a past forward mode, and finally a new month had arrived, a month where spirits are honored and ghostly expeditions or ghost haunting are dared to hold, no other month than November.Epilogue 1While Amie tooked on last stroll on the corners of her school, her cell phone rang and she had quickly answered the call, but, she had failed in the process of answering that she had answered the text message instead. walking as if she was focused on nothing but the text message and phone call that rang a couple of minutes ago, before she could even avoid it,,.` all of a sudden she had bumped hard onto someone and papers flew in the air.“ouch, please be careful next time. I’m sorry sir/mam, but my eyesight isn’t that well until now…”quickly she had ran off to her father’s car and sat down waiting for him.

↓♫a brief history♫↓



♀a pointless, meaningless, chapter♀


BHEST: joshua mariz R. pagtalunan




si joshua, sino po ba sha? para sakin sha po yung bhest ko na mahal na mahal ko ng higit pa sa isang friend at friend. simula ng makilala ko po sha, i love you agad ang sumbat sakin. hahahaha...tama poh ba yun? heart break kasi sha kay jane nun, yung first love nyah. kaya ayun, ng makita atah account ko ako ang pinagtripan message. wala pa kasi po ako phone nun high school eh. 2 year ako nun at 3rd year high school sha. makulit po si joshua, masarap kausap, malambing at sweet. masamang ugali? ayaw nya sabihin yung talagang nasa isip nya, minsan kahit wala sha iniisip mukhang merun pano serious look lague kahit na mukhang unggoy. manila zoo nga tawag ko sakanya. mas pinili ko sha gawin bhest friend kasi ayaw ko sha mawala. hibang ba ang ma inlove sa text? oo. pero, ok lang. one time umiyak ako nun at nasa laguna na kami nakatira nun kahit hindi pa tapos ang school year. tinugtugan nya ako sa guitar ng the day you said goodnight. hehehe eh hindi ko nasabi sakanya na gustong gusto ko ang tunog ng guitara. kaya nun tinugtugan nya ako tumahan ako sa pag-iyak. papano kasi ikaw ba tugtugan at kantahan hindi ka ba mapapangiti? read nyo ang story na to from top to bottom ah. tapusin nyo. hehehe para dun sa wala magawa at trip lang basahin to. pero, dito naman kasi sa blog ko wala mashado nagbabasa kaya baka sa bulletine ko post toh. tapos nun, ginawan nya ako kanta palague kasi ako tumatawag sakanya kahit walang dahilan. gusto ko lang kasi makausap ang bhest ko. guys, alam nyo after nun, nag away kami ulit nun mahal ko kunwari ahahah nun mga oras na yun. pagtawag ko sakanya nag guguitara ulit sha, ayan na naman NARDA naman ngayon. hahaha.. ang corny poh nya ano? lalo na nung ipost nya sa bulletine ang buong pangalan ko at nag i love you kahit hindi ko pa sha ganun ka kilala. dito lang kasi kami sa friendster nun, at para makausap sha pag message walang prob pag dito. pero ng sa cellphone na bumuntot pa ako ng bumuntot kay mama para bigyan ako ng cellphone kahit ericson. hahahan yung luma na model. hindi naman kasi ako malakas sa parents ko eh.kaya kahit masakit kamay ko pag sad sha o wala sa sarili text parin ako ng text greet ko sha kahit nasa tricyle ako nakasakay hahaha tama ba yun nakasabit nanga sa tabi tinetext parin yung bhest friend nya? mahal ko kasi sha, at ayaw ko ng pinababayaan ko ang mahal ko. sumusobra pero, pinipigilan ko. ng mag 4rth year na ako, tagilid ang mundo ko. ayun kahit hirap graduating na kasi, gumawa ako ng way para mapadpad ako ng manila. gustong gusto ko na kasi makita ang bhest ko. ang bhest ko na mahal na mahal ko. kalokohan ko na toh diba? hindi ako baliw sa bhest ko. sira lang talaga ang ulo ko na mahalin sha ng ganito. ng mapadpad ako ng manila hindi ko expect na first sem palang, makikita ko sha, akala ko matatagalan bago ko pa sha makita. nagulat nalang ako ng biglaan mag offer yung classmate ko na ihahatid nya daw ako kaya nun kahit four na ng hapon atras abante ako. kung sasama ako sakanya. ganun ka lakas ang effort ko na gusto ko sha makita, gusto ko sha makasama. sana nga hindi na punta sa wala ang lahat. importante sakin ang bhest ko, dahil si joshua ang una ko friend na guy, una ko bhest na guy, una kong textmate ahahha, una ko friendster. kaya mahirap bumitaw lalo na pagnakahanap na sha ng iba diba?last song na toh, tapos log out na ako papasok ako sa class. want ko na umayos kasi finals na next week. *tayo sa upuan at shut down ang computer, tingin sa kwarto at sa picture nila dalawa ni joshua. bhest ko, i love you very much kahit ganu pa katagal hindi ako mananawa na sabihin sayo yan. alam ko makakahanap ka na ng bago gf kasi my new best friend ka na din, pero don't worry pag naayos ko sarili ko tamo makakikita ka ng bago labas sa mental heheh joke. love you.. bye for now...




Wednesday, April 23, 2008

+anime_reviews_FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST+

edward 002

THE FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST

A special review:

[THE MANGA>>>

i haven't really finished nor started much on the manga but, the sneak peak on how they made the lay out of the cover page and the lines on how they drew made me more than interested into reading and finishing the manga itself. it is a must read for most of you anime fans who want a little something out of the ordinary lovy dovy stories that are as of today we all watch and hear. i mean, the story is magnificient as well as the anime itself.

[The Anime>>>

WOW! awe struck, i have never seen such great effects, such great dub from the american version and the original dub on japanese. the manga turned out to be more than just a pleasing anime to watch but it also came out to be one of the top best ranks in my list.

Character review:

the main character is Alphonese Elric's Older brother Edward Elric. My review on Edward? when it comes to skills he is no better than any other ordinary men. i mean, at his very young age. he is very well, indeed a skillful fighter, intelligent by all means, and has a very excellent choice when it comes to making decisions. although he had made blunders from his past, it isn't really a complete and perfect review neh?

Generalization:

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST IS A MUST SEE ANIME FOR EVERYONE. IT IS COMEDIC AND EDUCATIONAL BOTH AT THE SAME TIME A TOUCHING STORY ABOUT BROTHERLY, FAMILY LOVE.

Note: this page review is not yet what you see right now i'm still working on the words and as of now still reading and re-watching everything. from the movie review, series and the manga itself.

till then, i got to run and watch hell girl. hahaha see you again soon mina-san!

friendster

FRIENDSTER

what is it?

its an online community just like myspace, it is where you are allowed to express yourself more and meet new friends. the word is online cyber space community.

how many users does it have?

well, on estimated value of computer users most are the youth then followed by adults who wish to find friends, business transactions, endorsements and the sort.

the Value?

people find ways to communicate with one other through the internet, though it may not be the same as online chatting, it is still one of the great sources of leasure and recreation.

Benefits?

does it give benefits? well, first of all it has easy intructions. anyone can learn right away how to use a friendster account. well, maybe not everyone but as long as you know how to use the computer and the internet i guess it wouldn't be much of a problem right?

Danger it brings?

does it have danger to anyone at all? yes. why? well, first of all since it isn't like the chat room where if you find a webcam you would actually see who you are talking with or you get a uick reply. but, its because anyone can pretend to be anyone at all. that is the point that it holds.

but, in my over all review? i think friendster is one of the best online community sites that has become a part of my life.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

♫first_crush♫



♀jesus Jose B. Escalona♀

hey, jebs hahahah.. ahmm hope you don't mind. ahmm..
this guy is one of my friends and classmates in elementary. ahmm this page i lay it on for him, because i just want everyone to know that its a pleasure having to meet someone like him.

message: ahmm jebs, its been awhile. i hope you take care of yourself. ingat ka parati and hope you will always be happy!

hahahah

note: the two of us, way back then ALWAYS HAD A FIGHT hahahah, pano po kasi mashadong mayabang sah, pero i guess his change naman kahit papano. although his face has stayed the same as always. hahahaha..

well, that is all ja ja matte for now everyone!

♫My_heart_till_the_end♫

Joshua and jess forever

Hey bhest, you may think that i may be at my worst when i am mad but, i just want you to know that i will always be there for you even if you turned our world upside down. want to know why? because i will always love you even if you don't love me back. even if i do move on, i will always take care of you as promised. take care always loving you always.

jess









My best friend and me



to everyone who will read this right now? from the very moment you all will happen to pass by in this blog of mine. i just want to share to the world how happy i am to have her with me, all these years. mina-san! DOMO ARIGATOO GOZAIMASU!





♫Nataline Empaynado♫

















↓♀who is she?♀↓

who is this young girl who i can always depend on when i need a shoulder to cry on?

well, she's my younger anime addicted brother's cousin.
*pardon my grammar*
but, it doesn't really matter right now.
all that i am happy about is that i met her and never let her go.
i mean, who where can you find gold in the middle of the city, where everyone is hypocrit, a critic, judgemental and abusive. she may be young, but she has the mind of the youth who would always be willing to trust those who are dear to her. sure, most of the times she may appear to be childish and much more of a negative thinker than i am. but, she is also one of those people who would take good care of you no matter what. the song shooting star on my profile that is found in my first account purppledemon33@yahoo.com is dedicated just for her. because, in every dark hour in my life, there she is my silver lighting. she is my strenght when am sad, the times i get down she is one of those people i think about and care about. although i may be stubborn at times and most of the times i just let my nerve take over me. i just want to let the whole world know how proud i am to have met her.


"NYRA, take care as always. i will and may not always be there for you. but, i will always be watching over you. i love you very much.. take good care of yourself alright?"

♠who we really are???: vanity_corpse_clan♠



Vanity:

"vanity is the excessive belief in one's own abilities or attractiveness to others."
In many religions vanity is considered a form of self-idolatry, in which one rejects God for the sake of one's own image, and thereby becomes divorced from the graces of God. The stories of Lucifer and Narcissus (who gave us the term narcissism), and others, attend to a pernicious aspect of vanity.
Philosophically-speaking, vanity may refer to a broader sense of
egoism and pride. Friedrich Nietzsche wrote that "vanity is the fear of appearing original: it is thus a lack of pride, but not necessarily a lack of originality."[1] One of Mason Cooley's aphorisms is "Vanity well fed is benevolent. Vanity hungry is spiteful."[2]
In early Christian teachings vanity is considered an example of pride, one of the seven deadly sins.
The symbolism of vanity:
In Western art, vanity was often symbolized by a peacock, and in Biblical terms, by the Whore of Babylon. In secular allegory, vanity was considered one of the minor vices. During the Renaissance, vanity was invariably represented as a naked woman, sometimes seated or reclining on a couch. She attends to her hair with comb and mirror. The mirror is sometimes held by a demon or a putto. Other symbols of vanity include jewels, gold coins, a purse, and often by the figure of death himself.
Often we find an inscription on a scroll that reads Omnia Vanitas ("All is Vanity"), a quote from the Latin translation of the Book of
Ecclesiastes.[1] Although that phrase, itself depicted in a type of still life, vanitas, originally referred not to obsession with one's appearance, but to the ultimate fruitlessness of man's efforts in this world, the phrase summarizes the complete preoccupation of the subject of the picture.
"The artist invites us to pay lip-service to condemning her," writes Edwin Mullins, "while offering us full permission to drool over her. She admires herself in the glass, while we treat the picture that purports to incriminate her as another kind of glass—a window—through which we peer and secretly desire her."
[2] The theme of the recumbent woman often merged artistically with the non-allegorical one of a reclining Venus.
In his table of the
Seven Deadly Sins, Hieronymus Bosch depicts a bourgeois woman admiring herself in a mirror held up by a devil. Behind her is an open jewelry box. A painting attributed to Nicolas Tournier, which hangs in the Ashmolean Museum, is An Allegory of Justice and Vanity. A young woman holds a balance, symbolizing justice; she does not look at the mirror or the skull on the table before her. Vermeer's famous painting Girl with a Pearl Earring is sometimes believed to depict the sin of vanity, as the young girl has adorned herself before a glass without further positive allegorical attributes. [3] All is Vanity, by Charles Allan Gilbert (1873-1929), carries on this theme. An optical illusion, the painting depicts what appears to be a large grinning skull. Upon closer examination, it reveals itself to be a young woman gazing at her reflection in the mirror.
Such artistic works served to warn viewers of the ephemeral nature of youthful beauty, as well as the brevity of human life and the inevitability of
death.

corpse:

A cadaver or corpse is a dead human body. "Cadaver" is normally used as a more formal name for a body being used in medical training or research.

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VANITY CORPSE:

MEANS IN THE DEATH THERE IS BEAUTY. WHILE THE LIVING TREASURE NONE. DEATH IS NOT ONLY WHEN A PERSON DIES, IT IS WHEN A PERSON IS BEING BETRAYED OR KILLED BY HEART AND SPIRIT. THAT ONE LOST HOPE, IT BECOMES A SIGN OF A PERSON LIVING AND YET AT THE SAME TIME DYING.

:VANITY CORPSE TRIBE:

iTs soul purpose is to regain broken spirits that had been badly wounded,and yet time could not possibly heal.


♠pochii♠


☺pochii☺

talk about having it all loose on srew ups. vanity corpse clan stood a whole lot better than uvc. i mean, ng makilala ko si pochii medjo kumalma na ang ugali ko. sana nga its for the good na. thanks at nagkarun ako ng friend na kagaya ni poch2x hehehe sana hindi magbago.

>>act:tagalog mode aKo now eh hahahahah<<

Monday, April 21, 2008

♥CaNdy_ClaSsiFiEd_LoVe?♥



♣SwEet_vibrant_friendly_love♣

[>>>] to find a friend who will accompany you in every plan you make, even if you had just met him/her for the first time is a very rare acquaintance indeed. i mean, after a horrible betrayal was made you find, life suddenly rushing into your own course just the way you had always wanted it to be then all of a sudden you remind yourself that you shouldn't be trusting to much but, then you come back into the same old trusting person that you are. well, i know that this may sound totally crazy, and nuts. but, well, i just want to tell this to the world. it is indeed an honor to meet someone like her. i mean, come on... look what she has done for me, when i haven't done anything for her in return. though i do know that sometime soon, i would have to return the favor. sooner or later i'd be the one doing something of value for her. but, until then am thankful that i met this person, coz she made things possible for me. i mean, if it wasn't for her, i guess i would have been moping around the bushes and beating myself to death thinking about how the world has been oh so cruel to me lately. right? i mean, its really kind of something to meet angels on earth without you having to notice that person right away right? ^_^
well, this one is just a little shrine for her. MYKA.. thank you for everything that you have done for me!

Friday, April 18, 2008

♣creepy_people?♣

Note to yourself.

"if you ever try to put yourself into someone, it doesn't matter if you feel comfortable with that person or not. what matters most is that you put trust but you leave a large portion for yourself so that when the long run runs out... you don't get hurt as much..."

Believe me. you wouldn't want to be in the same shoes that i was before.

i don't have much time to lay everything i am thinking in this blog. but, right now as i drop by from time to time and take good care of this page, i just want everyone to hear out my little aches.

♥trust is a very important ingredient in any relationship.

♠ friendship is as important as trust. because without friendship "LOVE" would have never been created.

♠Love is the equal to all the main ingredients. this is the result of trust,faith and friendship.

in order to create an almost perfect relationship. one must learn to "give" and "take" .


these are a few of the values i learned in life.
that i wish to understand and share with everyone.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

>>>un_ending_lies

::LIFE::
<<>>

ELEMENTARY::

i always thought about life, as book. where you are given the chance to write your own story, and make the most of what you have. believing that there is a God to fear, that destiny exist and fate and reality are two of the realization i have to face. I believed, for the longest of time, that things happen for a reason, and that nothing in this world was a coincidence. my line of thought seemed rather farthest than of those in my age and my grade, but hey its just the way i looked in life. believing that things will always stay the same, no matter what the circumstances maybe, everything will be alright no matter how big the mess may have happened and occured, and most importantly i had a very strong positive outlook in life since i had my anime and imagination to satisfy my fantasy and dreams.

HighSchool::
the very moment i had my feet planted on the school grounds of De lasalle lipa. my heart went totally wild. i wanted things to go better in my high school life, i wanted everything to fall into place, i always planned, i always schemed, i always looked forward to something.believing that in every hardship, it will always be rewarded, in every truth it will be given the same. but, then i was amazed to find love when i wasn't thinking, to find friends when i wasn't looking and to find enemies when i wasn't trying. there was just a part of me when i was in elementary that they never wanted, and i should have kept all these years because it was the only thing i held for a treasure to keep. if only i had been stronger enough to keep that happy, positive, perky and sweet side of me. i wouldn't be in this mess that i am right now. but, then i learned it all in my high school life, that a friend once told me before me parted ways that "things change and people do so too..." from then on, i never realize until i finally felt what she had meant. it wasn't just me who had the problem but, it was also the people around me. i guess i was just young back then, not being able to hold strong of what i believed to be my philosophy in life. but, at least although somethings in my heart and mind had change, there were things left untacted, and that was to believe that if you give kindness, it will always be rewarded back.

College::

>>from the very first time i sat foot here in manila, everything i stood for, i had always reminded myself of the sweetness and bitterness of my past, for there were no more sweet memories to grab hold of a destiny untold. fate was calling my name, and i never even realize how stupid i was to let myself fall in a pit of darkness. i never learned so much, in a year i had strived hard to teach myself to be strong, to firmly believe but then in the end althouge i held on. i still manage to let go of my heart.


life::for me as of now, is a random thing. it is normal and abnormal at the same time. you find life, in the most unexpected places. you find nothing worth fighting for if you loose to what you believe, and that you should never let go of the people you held dear if you know that they will fall into the hands of someone who will only hurt them more than just a flick of a finger.

life, is like a domino played in a line, when turned down everything follows as it is.

♠DeaTh_tO_a_GodDess♠

upfront you find me invisible. i will let you die in pain. i will not stop for any cause, until our fatal music stops playing. this story you started i thought it has already ended, who would ever even realize this sanity you have given me, will be the cause of your dear life. say that i am evil, say that i am merciless, but the music gives me the power and strenght to demolished your shrine. within me, HATRED will never disappear, even if i try to Love you back as friend who i care so much, i will not let you out without any mercy at all. you shall perish in my hands, in my heart you will hold this funeral. die you bastard, die for making my heart bleed. now it is no longer beating, find the key to make it run again. damn you asshole!

♦HiStOriCaL BeTrAyAL♦

JOSHUA MARIZ R. PAGTALUNAN
he was my "FIRST LOVE". my "FIRST BHEST FRIEND"
this guy was the crap i was in_love with even before i was in_love with my first boyfriend.
If only i can turn back time and used my mind more than just had fun, i guess i wouldn't be in this mess. This guy who i trusted so much with all my heart, with all my life was the last guy on earth that i would ever even try to forgive. If you would ask me to Define betrayal and Traitor?
I'd give you his Name. He Will forever BE in my Death List!
do i have the REASONS TO BE ANGRY, TO BE MAD, TO BE FURIOUS?
YESSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know it was wrong to trust too much, but MAN this was one hell of a trust i'd never give back.
along time ago, i learned how to love, how to value a friend too much, how to sacrifice almost everything i have just to make that "special someone happy" but, then in the end he ended up Hurting me as BADLY as no one had ever DONE it to me. i guess he is the Very First person who i will never ever forget. Even if i do learned to forgive that person, i think i would just never learn to forget what wrong he has done. because of this, the course of my life has forever changed. the times i spent thinking of you was in great pain and misery when i believed in every word you had said to me. while you told me you would take good care of me, even as a friend you would learn to value me. but, it was the biggest mistake i ever ever did. it was the biggest and loudest mistake i will never ever forget!
one word for you JOSHUA!
FUCK!
F- URY
U- NENDING
C-IRCLES
K -ILLS
"DIE ASSHOLE DIE"

↓♂pPaGe_OwNeR♂↓

INTRODUCTION
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the owner of this page was born on the month of August 5th year 1989, in an Hospital in Cebu City, philippines. yet, she had lived all of her life in a small town in bauan, batangas city. where she had studied, learned to make friends, understood what life was about. her full name is Giselle Maris A. Bacalla, she is as of now already 19 years old this coming August of year 2008.Currently, she has stopped her studies, but her current course as of now was Corporate Communication in St.Paul University Manila.
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Name:: Giselle Maris A. Bacalla
Stage Name: Marianne Lee
birthMonth: August
birthdate: 05
Birthyear: 1989
Zodiac Sign: Leo
Chinese Year: Snake
Zodiac: Leo
Age: 18 years old
height: 4"9
skin: flesh
eyes: brown
hair: Black
:favorites:
Food: Icescream(double dutch),cake(double dutch)
drinks: water, juice(tropicana)
:Addicted to:
Music: japanese music, american music, philippine local music
Genre: emo/jrock/punkrock/metal/jpop
ANIME: vision of escaflowne, Jigoku shoujo ai, la corda oro primo paso, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Detective School Q, captain tsubasa, black jack, hanazakari no kimitachi,card captor sakura, tsubasa chronicles
:LOVES:
Reading books, writing stories/novels/fan fictions/songs, singing, dancing, playing sports,hanging around,chatting with friends, food trip, anime hunting
:HATES:
being laugh at, getting wet in an important occation, talk shit by a friend treated very dearly, doing house hold chores, ranting of her mother, complaints of his older brother, people who say they hate themselves and when told shit they say they aren't like that. pretenders, back stabbers, time consuming people, demanding people for such reason.
:EMAIL ADDRESSE'S:
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